“Develop interest in life as you see it; in people, things, literature, music – the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. Forget yourself.”
Reading these words brought this blog about for me today. Something that I have had pressing on my heart for a very long time. Over the years I have learnt many lessons and grown in so many ways but something I have never done is take time out for myself. Take time to enjoy just being alone, (I used to hate being alone) to sit in silence (silence scared me) and not need to converse with another soul (If I didn’t I felt lonely). Lately all I have wanted to do is this. Of course I still enjoy being the social, giving, loving, caring person I usually am but I have come to understand that there is only so much I can give. I am giving to much and I am not the cup half full girl anymore (as in right now), I am the cup half empty. I am tired, have minimal words and I need you instead of you always needing me.
I am going to listen to these words and start taking time to explore things again, whether that be music, people, things or absolutely nothing.
For my own mental health I have decided to colour in again. Yes, pencils and textures. I am colouring in within the lines and working my way out. I am finding silence and creating space and healing for my own soul. I am finding my childhood, I never had one, I never played like a child should have, I never had toys and I never new what it was like to colour. I am so grateful to have found this gorgeous Mandala EBook from the Fifth Element. It excites me. Here is my first mandala I coloured. A few of my fav colours.
I don’t have much more to say but if you are reading this. Thank you for taking the time to read it and all my love.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful Friday. Have a wicked weekend.